ok ok, after much time lounging around, being a couch potato, and not doing much thinking, i am finally back. you can read most of the stuff on "warring" about my break and time in NY and NJ. but now i'm back in fl, and will be back in berkeley in 5 days times. time to go to work again on my grad school apps....i'm kind of nervous about the whole thing because if i don't get into anything that means i hafta start looking for stuff and planning out after graduation so i don't end up as a bum on the berkeley streets...and that would be a major pain in the butt. so i am scared, but ultimately it is God's plans.

temptation is a slippery thing to be grasped with. sure the concept isn't hard, but when it actually comes it can twist up everything. i guess that's when how strong u r spiritually can be truly evaluated. it's funnie how something that's so tempting at this one moment can mean nothing to u at another.....when i don't give in to it, it passes quickly usually...and i'm left wondering what was so appealing about it before....that is, until the next time it comes along. i think that it is at those times when the spiritual disciplines count for what my mental state is to battle it.