I feel kind of isolated right now....perhaps i'm too unwilling and too lazy to reach out to those around me, or that i simply always just expect others to take the first step....I've been feeling pretty much in my own world right now....taking my classes alone, doing my hw alone, studying alone....i think i've always wanted an accountability partner--someone to make me do the things i avoid and is willing to tell me that i'm wrong, and provide encouragement when i need it. of course it shouldn't always be take take take, and not give....but i do wonder what that would be like.

during spring break, it felt alone (apart from being w/ eculeus) cuz others were busy hanging out w/ their significant others and work and studying...no girl time for poor shendiao. ;) and up here now it has changed to ministry and studying and hw...perhaps it's time for me to stop playing snood and do more thinking and reflection in lieu of not having others making me think. :)

i wonder what it'll be like next yr at usc....:D