hehe, this lakers conspiracy theory w/ david stern is starting to take off again this postseason....and based on the 4th quarter and ot of today's Minny-LA game, I would almost think that it's true. it was also realli hilarious how when refs called foul on the kobe 3-pointer end of the 4th quarter, the tnt commentators ran that play over like 5 times w/ slow motion, each time exclaiming, "there was no contact!" haha. well, that's what happens guys talk for 3 hrs nonstop. anyways, good game, for anyone that missed it

interesting that jerricko has been pondering about service....altho on a different note, i've also been contemplating on this notion of "serving". so what does it mean? how does one go about doing it? is there some sort of balance? difficult questions to answer. Jesus served many during his time on earth, but the complexities of what his service involved and embody is not something that i have looked in depth into.

in personal opinion, i feel that it is more than telling others what they should do, or encouraging them once in a while....nor is it merely physically helping them w/ the difficulties of life....i'm better at some of these aspects than others, but many times i feel that it is simply because i don't want to put myself out there in an unfamiliar territory. serving someone is a commitment, requiring a changed perspective on ur relationship w/ them. the foundation is sacrificial love and care, but you can't serve someone without involving him or her in your thoughts, actions, prayers, joys, pain, and growth. so i conclude that perhaps it is time that i start being disciplined this coming week, so that i can have the energy and time needed to invest in others...

(fyi: my thoughts are usually just rambles about various things all put together.....usually they are very disjointed and incohesive, and not meant for a logical mind. :D )

update on calvin: i took him to da vet, and apparently he has mites....so he got a shot, and is due for a follow up visit in two weeks...he's still scratching some and his head still have wounds n stuff, but hopefully they're healing....:) i can't put him back in his normal cage yet cuz i hafta clean n disinfect it....so til then he doesn't get his normal "toys".....how sad.

wow! i'm up! i'm blogging!!!

hey, i don't think i've been up this late all semester!!! isn't that amazing.....i realli hate lab reports....only one more to more....so tortuous...this one only took me from 2 this afternoon til now, not that i'm done w/ it yet, but almost. aaaaah, so painful.....

we attempted to go to the warriors/lakers game yesterday at the oakland arena....we got there by bart, and walked to the front door, waited in line for security....but alas, kukuaze's backpack could not be brought into the arena....and the camera check place wouldn't accept backpacks....after much milling around, we turned back, got ripped off by selling our tickets very cheaply to some scalpers (i think), and barted home....mmmm, nothing beats watching the game on tv w/ cheesystix dipped in ranch....mmmmm. :)

calvin is bleeding....i think he might die soon. :(

I feel kind of isolated right now....perhaps i'm too unwilling and too lazy to reach out to those around me, or that i simply always just expect others to take the first step....I've been feeling pretty much in my own world right now....taking my classes alone, doing my hw alone, studying alone....i think i've always wanted an accountability partner--someone to make me do the things i avoid and is willing to tell me that i'm wrong, and provide encouragement when i need it. of course it shouldn't always be take take take, and not give....but i do wonder what that would be like.

during spring break, it felt alone (apart from being w/ eculeus) cuz others were busy hanging out w/ their significant others and work and studying...no girl time for poor shendiao. ;) and up here now it has changed to ministry and studying and hw...perhaps it's time for me to stop playing snood and do more thinking and reflection in lieu of not having others making me think. :)

i wonder what it'll be like next yr at usc....:D